BE NOT PROUD

I went back and looked at my old blog, The Confirmand, and decided to pull some of the posts from there and place them here. I posted on this blog three years ago before creating this blog. It’s pretty uneven, but there were some good things there. Beginning with this:

This is a continuation of the 73 Steps to Spiritual Communion with God. The previous posts can be found throughout the archives on Michael Dubriel's site. He began listing the steps in April 2002, and I wish they were available all as one document. This is the 34th step. Pride is a continuing struggle for me......

(34) Not to be proud...

I do not think that it is a mistake that pride is mentioned right after persecution. There are tales that at the times in the early Church, when persecution was waged against the church, that some Christians actively sought to be persecuted and martyred. This was against Our Lord's command: "When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next," (Matthew 10:23), and here St. Benedict cautions us not to be proud.

This is a fundamental principle to the Spiritual Life. You can not be proud. Once you start to gloat over the spiritual gifts that you are blessed with, or how well you are doing in prayer, or how much better you are, or how high you are up on the spiritual ladder---you are right back at the bottom of the pit. Your ego has won again and God is very distant from you.

There is a prayer to pray when you feel "proud " of your spiritual accomplishments. Not surprisingly it comes from God Himself in the person of Jesus. Jesus tells his disciples, "when you have done all that is commanded you, say, `We are unworthy servants; we have only done what was our duty,'" (Matthew 17:10).

We must avoid pride, because it is a great obstacle to be open to our great and unrelenting need for God. Pride at its root seeks to cut God out of the picture. It goes without saying then that pride is the greatest enemy to our communion with God, but it also needs to be said that it is a great temptation when we find our lives becoming so much better because of our communion with Him.